Sad News
Last night, at 2am, Spirit's last-born puppy faded away. No cry just simply failed. Spirit tried to get her moving, to revive her. This was hard on her as it was on me. I have photos but I see no point in posting. In going over this, she never truly latched on and it most likely was an attachment issue in utero. It happens. We have had a few over the years - not many but never one that refused to latch on. Perhaps not developed enough to make her debut. It tells me she was not meant to be.
I cried by myself last night terribly and Spirit had her grieving and then she wanted her out of the whelping box, the blanket gone and then for the 1st time she left her xpen relaxed. She ate. She went outside where before she wouldn't leave the xpen. She slept on her back vs feeling the need to keep the pups encircled.
I am crying as I type. This will pass, I suppose as it has for Spirit but not yet. She is focusing on the living which is gaining like crazy and doing really really well. I need to as well.
Nathan got the news this morning and was incredibly sad but I didn't post last night as he was the 1st I needed to tell and I was too raw so I napped from utter exhaustion emotionally and otherwise. Dennis will go on night duty tonight. The 3 pups are doing exceedingly well.
Darlah
Reader Comments (28)
Everyone grieves differently. Some needs to talk about it. Some prefer to keep it quiet in their heart. Some just move on quickly. Some will have to have a good cathartic cry. Whichever way it is, it is quite ok.
I know how hard you tried to make sure this little one would thrive, and that you take it very personally when you can’t make things right. I suffer from that too. We can all take a lesson from Spirit. Mourn the lost by focussing on the “spirit” she has left in her momma and her siblings. ❤️
Omg, I am so sorry for you all. Crying with you.