I am TRYING
Tuesday, April 3, 2018 at 5:26PM 
Leti and her pup Spirit no longer fit in the same crate. Spirit doesn't usually eat in a crate. But she has decided to wait till everyone is done and can't figure out why Willow has attempted to eat it all.
Here is today's gallery. We just have Tenshi visiting us and she departs tonight. As usual, Tenshi is delightful.
We had visitors today and well Nathan had visitors as I was crying my head off. I felt mighty rude and guilty but I didn't want to be in that state on a first meeting. I have these bouts of overwhelming sadness. I hate how out of control it all is but it too shall pass. I do so miss Risa. I am lucky to have so many memories.
Last night the dogs didn't look for her. I still turned on the fan and left it on. It was something that Risa enjoyed and now it is habit. When Dennis is banging around downstairs it drowns out the sound.
Today we have had massive hail. The boys didn't care. Ella stood on the chairs as if she was and is queen and I suppose she may be but Roxie may think otherwise.
The schnauzers departed and they play so well with the dogs that they are sorely missed. They are lovely dogs - Ash and Gray. We enjoy them so. I like the dogs having exposures to friendly breeds that are not havanese at times.
The 3 pups went to a play session. There will not be another till next month. Gillian is off to England. They had fun but watching 3 at once in a sea of dogs was a good focus.
Tomorrow Charlie comes for a play session tomorrow. We are so looking forward to it but can the hail go away?
Friday Sherry and I head to massage chairs in Pacific mall. It will be a fun distraction. I so need it.
Reader Comments (8)
My heart goes out to you Darlah and your family as you grieve the loss of your lovable dog - Risa. Losing a pet reminds us how short and precious a life can be.
I get having these bouts of overwhelming sadness. They come when you least expect them. Those will pass but it takes time. Until then, you have to accept them as they come, no point in fighting them. They are part of the grieving process, whether we grieve for humans or canines, They are good for you. Thinking of you ❤️
I agree with Anne, you have to allow the grief to wash over you when it comes. Sometimes life has to wait until you have had time to grieve.
good advice from Anne and Kathy and I think it would be your advice as well to us if we were mourning. Be easy on yourself and enjoy the massage. It will take time and tears. I am sure you are getting lots of snuggles and kisses from all the dawgs. They seem to know when you need it. Thinking of all of you big hug.
I was sad to read that Risa passed away. Our beautiful, dear 4 legged friends who give us so much love & joy are sadly missed. They always remain in our hearts & bring us fond memories. Take care Darlah & Nathan. Thinking of you.
Dear Darlah and Nathan
Have not been on site for a week as were packing and travelling back from Florida so am so saddened to hear that Risa had passed. She was such a special girl, and such a great mom and grandma and such a “heart” dog. We remember the first time we met her when we came for our first interview and she snuggled with Al and every time we came we always loved spending some time with her.
We know how sad you will be and many tears will be shed and that is only normal.
I have shed some tears myself, as she was such a grand lady.
It sounds like it happened quite quickly so not a lot of suffering and we know she knew she was so loved by you and was her time to go,
Just so sorry and take care, and remember all the good times that are in your hearts 💕
I agree with the others that we just have to shed those tears because it is all part of the healing process but I know how it sometimes happens at the wrong time. Several years ago I lost a fairly young dog unexpectedly and I went through months of those sudden outbursts often in public and so I understand how felt when your visitors were there. It just takes time and you can't rush it. Take care !
Darlah, I’m reading your posts and it makes me sad and tearful to see how sad you are. It’s proof how much your dogs mean to you all. You guys are wonderful people. All your babies are lucky to have you. Risa had an amazing life and I bet she is looking down from the heavens feeling blessed to have had a loving family.